2009.07.12
today was my first day at the new school. i got lost trying to find my classroom. everyone already seemed to know each other, so i mostly kept to myself. i was exhausted when i got home and slept until the evening.
2009.07.13
i accidentally overslept this morning. i still made it to school somehow. the cafeteria curry was better than i expected. i think one of the teachers remembered my name already.
2009.07.14
i didn't go to school today. i stayed in bed for most of the morning. i wanted to tell myself i'd only miss one day.
2009.07.15
i stayed home again. i practiced the piano for a little while, but i couldn't focus very well. it rained all afternoon.
2009.07.16
i woke up early, but i couldn't convince myself to leave the apartment. i spent most of the day listening to music and looking out the window.
2009.07.17
another day at home. i should probably answer some of the emails from school soon. i ate instant noodles for lunch.
2009.07.18
i practiced scales today. they still sound heavier than i want them to. i think i'll keep working on them slowly.
2009.07.19
i told myself i would go to school tomorrow. i cleaned my desk instead. it felt more productive than it probably was.
2009.07.20
i missed school again. i stopped by the convenience store in the evening and bought milk and cookies. the cashier wished me a nice night.
2009.07.21
i finally opened the emails from school. they were mostly asking if i was alright. i wasn't really sure how to answer.
2009.07.22
i spent most of today at the piano. i think i made a little progress. i wish relaxing while playing came more naturally.
2009.07.23
i slept through almost the whole morning again. i should probably fix my sleeping schedule before it gets worse.
2009.07.24
i walked around after dinner for a while. the evening air felt nice. i didn't really have anywhere to go, but it was better than staying inside.
2009.07.25
i packed my bag before going to sleep. if i wake up on time tomorrow, i don't think i'll let myself change my mind.
2009.07.26
i plucked up the courage to go to school today. the school management seemed really delighted seeing me in the building after not attending school 14 days in a row. i met some people at work today, and i gave them our leftover cookies. they seemed hungry. i had trouble falling asleep last night.