2006.01.01
i decided to make this website because of the new years resolution i forced on myself. im not quite sure what i did, but it seems this website is working so. day 1 sleep log. i slept at 2 pm yesterday and only decided to wake up now or i would miss the food mom sent over for new years. the apartment is too quiet but i guess thats better than being annoyed. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2006.01.02
woke up at around 1 pm today. i didnt really do much besides watch tv and eat leftovers. i wanted to clean the apartment a bit because its getting kinda messy but i got tired halfway through and just laid down. ended up sleeping again for like 2 hours. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2006.01.04
went to the convenience store because i ran out of food again. bought instant ramen, bread and some pudding. i was gonna cook something proper but i didnt feel like it. listened to music for a while before sleeping. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2006.01.06
winter break is almost over. school starts again soon and my sleep schedule is still bad. i set alarms just to test if i can wake up early and i slept through two of them. probably not good. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2006.01.10
school started again. third year of middle school still feels the same. classes were boring and everyone was talking about what they did over break. i didnt have anything to say so i just stayed quiet. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2006.01.14
nothing really happened today either. i think thats a good thing. i ate too much bread and now i fel kinda sick. probably gonna sleep early tonight but i say that every day and it never happens. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2006.01.23
i forgot to post for quite a while, but my sleep hasnt really been getting better. ive been really lonely at school and i dont know why i just sleep through every class and no one wakes me up. its like im a hopeless case, and i just exist in everyones life but no one really talks to me because they either dont care or they dont want to spend energy on an already sleepy guy like me
2006.02.04
it was cold today. i got home late because i missed the train by like one minute. ate instnt nooodles and listened to music until i got bored of the same songs again. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2006.02.19
slept most of the afternoon. i think weekends make me more tired somehow. cleaned the kitchen because there were too many cups everywhere. i should probably buy more proper food but i dont feel like carrying bags home. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2006.03.08
school has been annoying lately. not bad just annoying. tests and homewrk and everyone talking too loud in the hallway. i dont really have anyone to talk to so i just go home when classes end. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2006.03.27
spring break started. i found an old cd i forgot i had. played it while doing laundry. the washing machine was louder than the music half the time but whatever. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2006.04.10
new school year started. still middle school though. everyone keeps talking about entrance exams already and its annoying. i get why but it still feels too early. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2006.05.09
i havent updated this in a while. nothing really happened. i go to school, come home, eat, sleep badly, repeat. i guess thats why i forgot about this site. there isnt much to write. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2006.06.02
fell asleep after school and woke up when it was already dark. i hate when that happens because it feels like the day just disappears. listened to the same piano piece again before sleeping.
2006.07.18
summer break is close. everyone seems happy about it but i still have entrance exam stuff so it doesnt feel that free. my mom sent me more money. bought soda, snacks and some frozen food. very healthy. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2006.08.29
august is almost over. i didnt do much. i stayed inside a lot because it was too hot and i didnt wanna sweat outside for no reason. my sleep schedule is bad again but thats not new. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2006.09.14
school has been back for a while. i still dont talk much. one guy asked me f i was always this tired and i said yeah. he laughed but i dont think he meant it in a bad way. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2006.10.11
entrance exam stuff is getting more annoying now. teachers keep reminding us like we forgot. i studied for a bit when i got home but then i got sleepy and stopped. i know thats bad. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2006.11.26
its cold again. i like it better than summer but waking up is harder. made tea and forgot about it until it was cold. still drank it anyway because i didnt feel like making another one. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2006.12.24
christmas eve. didnt do anything special. bought chicken from the store and ate it while watching tv. the apartment felt quieter than usual but not in a bad way. maybe because everyone else was busy somewhere. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2007.01.01
new year again. i guess this website lasted longer than i expected. slept through most of the morning and woke up around noon. made toast, checked the counter, and theres still not so many visits. life has been ok, i guess. could be better. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.01.15
school started again. this is my last part of middle school. everone keeps talking about high school like its gonna change everything. i dont really know if it will. probably not that much. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2007.02.08
i studied a little today. not enough but still more than usual. i kept falling asleep while reading so i had to stand up for a bit. it didnt really help. i just felt stupid standing there with a book. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.03.15
graduated middle school today. it was normal. people were taking photos and crying and saying theyll keep in touch. i didnt really have anyone to say that to. went home after and slept for a few hours. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.03.28
spring break feels weird. im done with middle school but high school hasnt started yet. i bought some new notebooks for kitagawa high school. theyre just normal notebooks but i guess i needed them. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2007.04.09
first day at kitagawa high school. i woke up too early because i was scared id oversleep. the uniform still feels weird. everyone was looking around trying to find people to talk to and i just stood there pretending to check something in my bag. i hope i make friends but i dont really know how people do that. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2007.04.23
thought today was gonna be anoramal day but i met some really weird but funny people today. i guess high school does kinda change peoples lives in a way. i made friends. their names are ██████, ███████ and ███████. ███████ introduced me to everyone. i thin im gonna call ███████ ███████. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.04.24
somehow i made a best friend. ██████ and i are best friensd now, and that matters a lot. we talk a lot now. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2007.04.27
school has been way less boring lately. ██████ talks way too much but somehow i dont mind. ███████ got mad at me because i called him ███████ again. ███████ just laughed and said i was annoying. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.05.01
golden week started. i thought id spend it sleeping but ██████ keeps texting me asking if i wanna go somewhere. i keep saying maybe. he somehow takes that as yes every time. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.05.05
went out today. i was tired the whole time but it was kinda fun. ██████ almost tripped over nothing and blamed the sidewalk. i think hes an idiot. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2007.05.08
██████ introduced me to another girl today. her name is ██████. shes pretty quiet but not in the same way i am. she somehow remembers literally everything the teachers say. i forgot her birthday like 10 seconds after she told me. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2007.05.12
i forgot to update again. schools normal. i still sleep through half the classes but at least now someone wakes me up before the teacher notices. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.05.19
███████ asked me why i always look sleepy. i said because i am sleepy. she said thats not a real answer. i think it is.
2007.05.28
██████ came over today. i forgot to clean the apartment so there were dishes in the sink and clothes everywhere. he said my room looks exactly like what he expected. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.06.02
██████ asked me why i always look tired. i said because i am tired. she stared at me for a few seconds and said thats not a real answer. i think it is. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.06.07
its getting hotter outside. i hate summer already. everyone keeps saying they wanna go swimming but id rather stay home with the fan on. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2007.06.12
met another guy today. his name is ███████. hes really quiet. i think he said like 4 words the whole day. ██████ said he looks like a puppy and now i cant stop thinking about it. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2007.06.18
███████ got a haircut. it looks exactly the same but everyone pretended it was different so i did too. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.06.24
███████ sat next to me during lunch because ██████ disappeared somewhere. we didnt really talk. honestly it wasnt awkward though. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2007.06.30
i fell asleep on the train and missed my stop. ██████ laughed at me for like 10 minutes straight. i hate him. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.07.04
██████ and ███████ argued over something stupid again. i think it was food. or maybe a game. i dont remember. ██████ told them they act like little kids and somehow they both got mad at her instead. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.07.08
we had to do group work today. somehow i ended up with the same people i always hang out with. i guess thats just called having friends. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2007.07.13
met another ██████ today. absolutely not. im not dealing with two hikarus so im calling him ████████ because thats his first name. he complained for like 20 minutes that it sounds old. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2007.07.17
uhhhh i met some dude named ██████ today. this guy is genuinely a cornball i dont know what to think of this one. sleep felt somehow better today maybe it was because i decided to walk away from him before he started talking
2007.07.21
summer break started. everyone was really excited but honestly im just glad i can sleep more. ██████ says were gonna do a bunch of stuff this summer. we'll see. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.07.28
██████ is kinda weird. he acts cool and then immediately does something embarrassing. ██████ says im one to talk. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2007.08.03
i slept until noon again. ██████ called me lazy. i told him hes loud. i think we were both right. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.08.09
everyone came over today except ██████ (some random girl i met) because she said my apartment is probably disgusting. she was right honestly. ██████ opened my fridge and immediately regretted it. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.08.17
went to a festival with everyone. it was crowded and hot and annoying. but when i got home the apartment felt way too quiet. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2007.08.18
i dont know how to tell everyone that im leaving i dont wanna leave
2007.08.24
i still havent told anyone im leaving. i was gonna say it yesterday but then ██████ started talking about some dumb tv show for like an hour and i forgot. maybe next time. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.09.03
schools normal again. we had a quiz today and i completely forgot about it. somehow still did alright. ██████ said i cheat because i sleep in class and still pass. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2007.09.10
██████ got mad at me because i forgot to bring something important for class again. she worries too much. or maybe i dont worry enough. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.09.16
went to karaoke with everyone today. i didnt sing much. mostly listened. ███████ is way louder than i thought she was. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.10.05
its getting colder. i like walking home when its cold because theres less people outside. stopped by the convenience store and bought pudding again. i think i have a problem. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2007.10.14
███████ finally laughed at one of hikarus jokes today. everyone acted like it was some historic moment. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2007.10.29
██████ came over and immediately complained that i still havent cleaned my apartment. i told him i was waiting for a special occasion. he said what occasion. i said i dont know. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2007.11.20
music has been fun lately. i still mess up sometimes and get annoyed at myself but i dont mind practicing. i think id hate being good at something i dont enjoy. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2007.11.29
██████ asked me if i ever get angry. i said yeah. he asked when. i couldnt think of anything so he said exactly. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2007.12.02
everyone keeps talking about christmas plans already. i dont really have any. maybe ill just sleep through the whole thing. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2007.12.27
i finally told ██████. i thought hed laugh or say something dumb but he just went quiet for a bit and said "oh." then he asked if id still text him. i said probably. thats about it. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2008.01.08
first day at osaka toin high school. i got lost twice. music classes are cool though. everyone here seems really serious which is kinda scary. i miss knowing where everything is. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2008.01.27
starting to remember peoples names now. i still eat lunch alone most days but thats alright. the cafeteria curry is actually pretty good. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2008.02.02
██████ texted me asking if im eating properly. i sent her a picture of instant ramen. she said thats not food. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2008.02.18
called ██████ today. mostly just talked about random stuff. he said ███████ still gets annoyed whenever someone mentions ███████. thats pretty funny. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2008.02.26
called ██████ today. ██████ somehow stole the phone for like 10 seconds just to call me old. hes literally younger than me by two months. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2008.03.09
i accidentally slept through my alarm today and somehow still made it to school on time. i should probably stop testing my luck. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2008.03.28
sometimes i still think about kitagawa. not like all the time or anything. just random stuff. the classroom windows. walking home. dumb conversations i forgot i remembered. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2008.04.19
i think im getting used to this place now. i know where all the classrooms are at least. thats progress. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2008.05.14
music is taking up most of my time now. not complaining though. i still get sleepy during history class. some things never change. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2008.05.22
███████ sent me a picture of a dog he saw outside school. no message or anything. just dog. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2008.06.07
summer is coming back and i already hate it. the trains are hotter, the classrooms are hotter and somehow i feel even sleepier. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2008.07.12
one more week until summer break. honestly this year went by pretty fast. i still miss some things from before but i think thats normal. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2008.07.24
im back in kitagawa for summer break. pretty stoked to be back actually, i recognize everything adn i cant wait to meet my friends my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2008.07.26
we meet again. i meet ██████ and ███████ but not many of the others are here. i dont see ███████ or ███████ and ████████ is nowher to be found. we meet at wagashi cafe and just end up talking about where ive been and what ive been doing for the past school year at osaka toin and i dont meet anyone memorable today actually. some quiet mean girl named ██████ was at the cafe today i think im not sure if it was her they all look the same to me i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2008.07.31
we hang out for a bit again but its even less productive then the last, im just happy to be in their presence honestly, way more cozy that at osaka toin where everyhting esmells like a hospital and death and sweat and music (i like music) woke up tired again. not surprising.
2008.08.25
we hang out more during break but i sadly have to leave kitagawa back to osaka and we say our very tearful goodbyes lol. ██████ is trying not to cry because he thinks its gay or something and ███████ is bawling. im kinda sad because everything is gonna smell like a hospital agai and im not gonna interact a lot with other people man somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2008.09.07
back at osaka toin now. summer break went by pretty fast. seeing everyone at kitagawa again was nice though. ██████ still talks too much. i think i missed that a little. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2008.09.18
music is getting more serious lately. i knew that already but i didnt really understand it until now. everyone practices a lot. sometimes i feel lazy compared to them. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2008.10.01
i stayed after school to practice oboe today. i kept messing up the same part over and over. it was annoying. one of the seniors told me to stop looking so angry while practicing. i didnt realize i was making that face. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2008.10.17
ensemble competition is coming up. im kinda nervous. not because of the audience though. i just dont wanna be the one that messes up. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2008.10.28
practices have been longer lately. i get home and immediately fall asleep. i forgot to eat dinner yesterday and only realized when i woke up at like 2 am. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2008.11.09
ensemble competition today. i was nervous before going on stage but it kinda disappeared once we started playing. i made one tiny mistake i dont think anyone noticed. i noticed though. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2008.11.10
we got silver. everyone said we should be happy and i am i guess. but i keep thinking about that one mistake. kinda stupid because nobody mentioned it except me. took a nap when i got home and now i cant sleep.
2008.11.23
called ██████ today. he asked how music was going and i said tiring. he said thats good because if it wasnt tiring id probably be bad at it. i hate that he makes sense sometimes. slept at around midnight today which is honestly pretty early for me.
2008.12.08
its cold again. my hands get cold before practice and i hate it. i keep warming them up with canned coffee even though i barely drink it. my sleep schedule is still terrible though.
2008.12.25
christmas. didnt really do anything special. practiced for a bit and called ██████. he said everyone at kitagawa misses me. i told him hes lying and he got offended. i told myself id sleep earlier tonight. probably not happening.
2009.01.01
new year again. i checked the website counter and its higher now. kinda weird thinking random people read this. if youre reading this stop being nosy. woke up tired again. not surprising.
2009.01.20
music is still hard. im still sleepy. some things dont really change. somehow im always sleepy no matter how much i sleep.
2009.04.23
im back in kitagawa now. got a pretty nice welcome back i hope everyone is happy im back
2009.05.17
sleep schedule still looking really bad i need some sleeping pills hopefuly thatll make it better
2009.05.30
didnt really do anything today, school has just been really boring. ate two onigiris at once because ███████ made two for me so i didnt wanna eat one and make the one i didnt eat feel bad. i slept okay i guess.
2009.06.20
spent time with ███████ and █████ today. it was really awkward uhhhhnn, we're all introverted so i guess it was okay. im really tired, probably because of too much social interaction today. i need to sleep.
2009.06.21
late entry today. spent quality time with ███████ and █████ today. had a really nice conversation with █████ during the field trip to the city. something in me feels a bit lighter somehow. sleep isn't looking great. 1:36 am right now and im wired after the milk tea i drank a few minutes ago. probably shouldn't have done that
2009.06.22
spent time with ███████, ██████ and ██████ today. field trip was funny. ██████ kept throwing hands with some random guy. slept good this time. maybe because i barely slept all day.
2009.07.06
haven't updated site in a while. for some reason, i feel like my friends are fading away from me. i'm not surprised, but i am at the same time. i'd ask to hang out with them more, but i don't wanna be selfish.
2009.07.07
spent more time with asagiri today. she finally made me onigiris after a while. i missed them, honestly. we also went on a field trip, and caught hikaru hanging out with his girl. they were pretty corny. my sleep was okay, but i woke up with really messy hair.
2009.07.08
i cant remember anymore